Duchess of Sussex Meghan Markle, in a tell-all interview with American host Oprah Winfrey, how she endured racist comments about their child Archie who was yet to be born then, and at one point, she felt so desolated and distressed that she began to have suicidal thoughts.
The 39-year-old mentioned that she had entered the royal family with all pomp and show, however, the happy kingdom turned into a cruel reality for her in the days that followed her wedding.
Meghan said that she started having suicidal thoughts and it took her a lot of courage to open up to her husband about it.
“I just didn’t see a solution,” Meghan said.
“And I realised it was all happening just because I was breathing.
The mother of one added that Harry had become increasingly concerned about her emotional vulnerability and she knew that she had to open up to stop herself from taking that step.
“I was really ashamed to say it at the time and ashamed to have to admit it to Harry, especially, because I know how much loss he suffered but I knew that if I didn’t say it, that I would do it, and I just didn’t want to be alive anymore.
“And that was a very clear and real and frightening constant thought.”
Meghan also said that she and her husband’s efforts of seeking medical help while staying at the palace went in vain because the officials there were concerned about its ‘impact on the monarchy.’
She said she was no less than a prisoner in the Kensington Palace with her aides even telling her that she shouldn’t be overexposing herself by going out to lunch with her friends. This, when she had left her residence only twice in four months.